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Desires: Desires are unlimited, you desire something and as soon as you achieve it, another desire will pop up and make you become compulsive to achieve it, let your desire or desires be there, do not select and be a witness to the desire or desires even though the pain and compulsion, keep ignoring the feeling, very soon you will be desireless, yourself and out of the desire delusions… Then you will see the whole stupidity of desires…To keep on desiring hurts and many time causes problems, it’s painful so once you become desireless then you can choose, why the desire becomes the master? Why not you

Mother: Thank You for making my dreams come true, Thank You for getting me everything I want, Thank You for worrying how to get me the things I want when you can’t, Thank you for being me when I’m in despair, thank You for helping me and Thank You for everything but one thing I can’t find words to Thank you in is for teaching me how to become me

In bed, it’s late, an unconditional love feeling for you which makes me feel phobic, a feeling of how a good Mother feels for her new born baby, I care so much, I want you to always be happy even when your sad, I want you to have everything you want… Images of the worst happening to you, my Angel, you feeling isolated and in despair or feeling lost like a kitten which makes me feel phobic again, I get out of bed and head to the balcony as I light a cigarette feeling for you but in same time trusting in goodness which God is

I feel isolation and mysteriousness, what’s real? It’s time to meditate and find the real; I’m sick of the fake, confusion and being lost in infinite lives, its time… Its dark, as I smell a fire smoke from distance, it makes my consciousness unfold as I get a feeling of an open mysteriousness and a great awareness which is much bigger than me, these planted ideas and thoughts in us which have been wasting our lives, how man is so insensitive through desires, it makes me feel fear… I go home and get in bed, a love feeling which makes me feel phobic

Mother: Every time I leave my home to another country I feel a great detachment from you, it feels like death and smells like it too, this detachment feeling which gives me truth… I can’t find words to thank you and thank my Family for giving me access to the world but what you gave me is as big as the universe and which makes everything in the world out of my interest, you gave me Love and compassion and I’m so full of it, I can’t sleep at night from the feeling of love and how cruel the world can be, what can I do I’m sensitive just like you, I know just like you, and it’s my right to be sensitive, I will never forget you in all the rest of my lives